Give Us This Day Prayer will bring my Will into Harmony with GOD!

Sending my simple greeting to my new friends in the Blog community... you were all with me in those happy times and sad times.... thank you and Merry Christmas to all!!!

God's messages to me come in different signs and i have to figure it out myself. What's cool is that once i see, hear or feel it, there's this feeling of calmness and peacefulness which is a sort of confirmation from HIM and it almost always make me grin from ear to ear.




Only people closest to me will be able to figure out how this phrase is important to me....



" Prayer will bring your WILL into harmony with the WILL of GOD. "


.......a sincere prayer from my heart... " Thank you so Much dear God and to my Power Rangers".

is it finally over??? 2008 is only days behind from leaving? I can't wait for the new year to come. I haven't read any Feng Shui predictions or what to expect for the year 2009.. I am simply eager to start on a NEW YEAR.. coz maybe.. just maybe.. things in my life will change for the better this time.

2008 was a tough one for me and my family.... it is such a BIG BIG BLESSING that here we all are and still OK.

Can't wait.... come 2009... come!!!!!

Thank you for My 'Smile'...for helping me start the day WITH A SMILE!!!!!

Can't Smile Without You
By Barry Mannilow


CHORUS:

You know I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sing
I'm finding it hard to do anything
You see I feel sad when you're sad
I feel glad when you're glad
If you only knew what I'm going through
I just can't smile without you

You came along just like a song
And brightened my day
Who would have believed that you were part of a dream
Now it all seems light years away

And now you know I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sing
I'm finding it hard to do anything
You see I feel sad when you're sad
I feel glad when you're glad
If you only knew what I'm going through
I just can't smile

Now some people say happiness takes so very long to find
Well, I'm finding it hard leaving your love behind me

And you see I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sing
I'm finding it hard to do anything
You see I feel glad when you're glad
I feel sad when you're sad
If you only knew what I'm going through
I just can't smile without you

I came across this title of post from one blogger... I am so sorry i clicked so fast i forgot the name of the blogger so i cannot mention you here.... but it made me think.... What would make this Christmas unique and different from past years????






A lot of immaterial and senseless reasons came to mind but allow me to sincerely and truthfully say this.... For the first time in my entire life... this Christmas 2008 is the first Christmas i thought of finding the best gift for the CELEBRANT. For once in my life i am not asking for something for myself... but I am offering something OF MYSELF to the ONE whose birthday became our Salvation.

Happy Birthday Jesus... Please accept the humble gift of my heart.

" Search my heart.. Look deep within my Soul..See if there'll be anything at all.. that might keep me from hearing you, keep me from knowing you.. keep me from Loving you.. DEAR LORD! "

With everything said and done, I don't want to look back at my 2008 and find myself regretting everything that has happened. There's no use to dwell on the past...given the chance, i would still do the things i have done.

Surprisingly, I now have a certain sense of calmness. Maybe because I may not fully understand everything but I am more open now for God and my 'POWER RANGERS' to work their healing wonders on me. I still have questions... I still feel hurt... I still cry a bit... but my BELIEF AND TRUST to GOD helps me get through each painful day.... each passing night.

Everything now is out of my hands... I did my BEST.... I gave my all... I know I was and still am a good person... I chose to be quiet.. i chose to FORGIVE. Now I am sitting here... waiting..... believing....trusting.....

The Reality of God's LOVE is as sure as the Cruelty of Man.... hear my heart's prayer.....

" OH LOVE OF GOD HOW DEEP AND GREAT... FAR DEEPER THAN MAN'S DEEPEST HATE... ENVELOPE ME. "

One small step at a time..... no rush.. surprisingly in just after a week i have this sort of calmness that helps me get through each painful day.

Give Us This Day blog was created to have a space to share my thoughts for the day.. i was aiming to inspire... encourage... but then i myself forgot why this is the title of my blog.... I was inspired by the Lord's Prayer.... the one Jesus thought us...

....Give Us This Day our Daily Bread.... God is giving us everything that we would need for the day.... we must never worry that HE will give us less....( goodness.. i need to tell myself that over and over again!!!! )

In this new trial in my life... I am just taking each day as it comes.. taking one small step at a time... hopefully always going forward...

I know i have been posting a lot of songs lately.... there are so many things i want to say.. i just can't seem to find the right words to express it ( or i can't find a nicer way of saying it $%@&*##!!!***!!! ) .... all i know now is that I am very very confused..... I may show a brave front...but inside I am very much broken.

So for now.... bear with my songs and the pics that go along with it which basically reflects my inner self at the moment....

Allow me to share a great passage i have read today :





Revelations 3:8

When God leads you to the edge of the cliff, trust Him fully and let go, only 1 of 2 things will happen, either He'll catch you when you fall, or He'll teach you how to fly! 'The power of one sentence! God is going to shift things around for you today and let things work in your favor. God closes doors no man can open & God opens doors no man can close.

Out Here On My Own
Irene Cara

Sometimes I wonder where I've been
Who I am
Do I fit in.
Make believin' is hard alone,
Out here on my own

We're always provin' who we are
Always reachin' for the risin' star
To guide me far
And shine me home
Out here on my own

When I'm down and feelin' blue
I close my eyes so I can be with you
Oh, baby, be strong for me
Baby, belong to me
Help me through
Help me need you

Until the morning sun appears
Making light of all my fears
I dry the tears
I've never shown
Out here on my own

When I'm down and feelin' blue
I close my eyes so I can be with you
Oh, baby, be strong for me
Baby, belong to me
Help me through
Help me need you

Sometimes I wonder where I've been
Who I am
Do I fit in
I may not win
But I can't be thrown
Out here on my own
On my own

All I ever wished for is to be happy and yet at peace.... recent events sort of shattered that... but i have to get up..pick myself up and believe in GREATNESS OF GOD... greater than this circumstance I am in..... sharing my horoscope for today....







The Bottom Line



If you feel weird or out of place today, don't worry. Peace is coming back soon.



In Detail



Your public self and your private self want different things right now, and it's starting to make you feel weird and out of place wherever you are. But the good news is that a confluence is coming soon -- by the end of the day your goals for your personal and professional lives will be in harmony. They might still not be totally aligned, but they will be close enough to each other to enable you to take a deep breath and smile again. Things are falling into place!


TO MY SMILE... MY TIME WITH YOU MAY HAVE BEEN SHORTLIVED.... BUT I WAS HAPPY.... IT WAS SPECIAL AND IT WILL ALWAYS BE IN MY HEART.....

I'm tired of getting hurt... I'm Gonna Win over this!!!! There's Much too much at stake upon myself I must Depend!!!!!






Win

Dark is the night
I can weather the storm
Never say die
I've been down this road before
I'll never quit
I'll never lay down, mm
See I promised myself that I'd never let me down

[1] - I'll never give up
Never give in
Never let a ray of doubt slip in
And if I fall
I'll never fail
I'll just get up and try again

Never lose hope
Never lose faith
There's much too much at stake
Upon myself I must depend
I'm not looking for place or show
I'm gonna win

No stopping now
There's still a ways to go, oh
Someway, somehow
Whatever it takes, I know
I'll never quit, no no
I'll never go down, mm, mm
I'll make sure they remember my name
A hundred years from now

[Repeat 1]

When it's all said and done
My once in a lifetime will be back again
Now is the time
To take a stand
Here is my chance
That's why I...

[Repeat 1]

Mmm, I'm gonna win

If You're Not The One
Daniel Bedingfield


If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call?
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all?

I never know what the future brings
But I know you're here with me now
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me then why does this distance main my life?
If you're not for me then why do I dream of me as your wife?

I don't know why you're so far away
But I know that this **much** is true
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I'm praying you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

'Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
'Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
You know my heart is by your side

I don’t wanna run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

Are BOSSES really born with INSENSITIVITY????? do they really have that exclusive right to drive their employees to the edge?????

Any more of this senseless shouting and i really don't know if i can control myself from exploding!!!!!

GGGGrrrrrrrrrr.....

hhhmmmmmm... nothing beats a hot cup of black coffee to perk up my day!!!! now what prompted me to blog about it??? Well you see, coffee is very much a part of my blood, hehehehe!! literally, i won't last a day without drinking at least one cup.... but mind you, i can take as much as 5 tall mugs of coffee a day!!!!

But then since i started having hyperacidity attacks, i personally decided to limit it to one cup a day and in the mronings only. Do you know my favorite blend??? Super Black where i can tangibly taste the conflicting flavors of bitterness and sweet sugar.

Well you see, i skipped drinking coffee for the past 2 days.. it was basically because of stubborn pride. In the office i was using my officemate's coffemaker but since i got so pissed off with her, i refused to use it no matter how much i crave for coffee.

So then last night, after quite a thorough search in our house, i found my old reliable, portable, one cup coffeemaker and took it here in the office today. And whooaaaaa....on the first sip i felt the energy flowing through my veins.... i felt alive and so alert!!! hehehehe.. hope nobody's freakin out.. i am just a certified coffeeholic!!!!

So now because of this stubborness, there are 2 coffeemakers in the office!!! hehehehe!



Well then, since the day is about to end for me.. i can say that i am a very satisfied lady!!! hehehehe.

I have learned this poem during my college years.. when i was struggling to be a part of an organization, we were made to memorize this by heart. But then as time flew.. i forgot it eventually.

I saw it again today in the page of blogger Maitri's heart.. let me repost....

Don't Quit...

When things go wrong as they sometimes will,
When the road you're trudging seems all up hill,
When the funds are low and the debts are high
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,
When care is pressing you down a bit,
Rest if you must, but don't you quit.
Life is queer with its twists and turns,
As every one of us sometimes learns,
And many a failure turns about
When he might have won had he stuck it out;
Don't give up though the pace seems slow--
You may succeed with another blow,
Success is failure turned inside out--
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt,
And you never can tell how close you are,
It may be near when it seems so far;
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit--
It's when things seem worst that you must not quit.

~ Anonymous ~


My favorite part.... 'Rest if you must but don't you quit!'

If you believe
From A Walk to Remember

I close my eyes and even when I’m sleeping I’m all right
Cause you are in my life
Once upon a time
I only imagined this
And now you’re mine
Wished for you so hard
Pray that you’d find me
Maybe you’re here today
Here to remind me

If you believe that dreams come true
There’s one that’s waiting there for you
Cause I believed when I saw you that when you want something enough
Then it can’t escape your love
There is nothing in the world that cannot be
If you believe

Everybody said that I was a fool to think that we connect
(Everybody said that) I couldn’t get my heart out of my head
But they just didn’t see
No they just couldn’t know
The feeling you get
The places you go

If you believe that dreams come true
There’s one that’s waiting there for you
Cause I believed when I saw you that when you want something enough
Then it can’t escape your love
There is nothing in the world that cannot be
If you believe

Never wished for material things
Never needed wind in my wings
I never wished for anything but you I can’t explain it
Someone just hold me
Go where your heart is you’ll never be lonely

If you believe that dreams come true
There’s one that’s waiting there for you
Cause I believed when I saw you that when you want someone enough
Then they can’t escape your love
There is nothing in the world that cannot be
If you believe

I wonder where my 'Smiley' is.... missin it a lot the past 2 days..... hope to hear from him soon...missed the sheepish 'grin'.....missed the wicked humor!!!!

I'm at the crossroads of my life... I don't know which way to go... sooner i need to decide.

Work is not that great anymore.. it never was but at least it helps keep both ends meet.. but now it's just not sufficient anymore. As usual, this has been my comfort zone... i am not very young anymore and somehow i am not that confident that i am still marketable for a new job.

But i need to decide.... I think i would be resigning next year..... I don't know.... I sure am praying hard for this...

Wish me luck!!!!

I have always liked Yellow Cab's Charlie Chan chicken pasta. But since it doesn't come cheap, i can only eat it when i have excess money hehehehehe!!! But then when KFC came up with Kung Pao pasta, and i found out it tasted exactly the same.. i got hooked. Now I tried to find a recipe and see if i can do this at home...






here's a recipe i found :

Ingredients
1 lb boneless skinless chicken breast, cut into 1 inch pieces
1 tablespoon cornstarch
2 teaspoons light sesame oil or vegetable oil
3 tablespoons green onions, chopped with tops
2 garlic cloves, minced
1/4-1 1/2 teaspoon crushed red pepper flakes (to your own taste)
1/2 teaspoon powdered ginger (can use fresh grated if preferred)
2 tablespoons rice wine vinegar
2 tablespoons soy sauce
2 teaspoons sugar
1/3 cup dry roasted peanuts
4 cups cooked rice, hot

Directions
1
Combine chicken and cornstarch in small bowl.
2
Toss to coat.
3
Heat oil in large non-stick skillet or wok on medium heat.
4
Add chicken.
5
Stir fry 5- 7 minutes or until no longer pink in center.
6
Remove from heat.
7
Add onions, garlic, red pepper and ginger to skillet.
8
Stir fry 15 seconds.
9
Remove from heat.
10
Combine vinegar, soy sauce and sugar in small bowl.
11
Stir well.
12
Add to skillet.
13
Return chicken to skillet.
14
Stir until chicken is well coated.
15
Stir in nuts.
16
Heat thoroughly, stirring occasionally.
17
Serve over hot rice.

This is one song that really touched my heart.. I'm sure a lot of blogs already writing about this and posting the video, allow me to be one of those to post the lyrics... the song surely apply to our everyday lives..not just cancer patients.....





Just Stand Up

Beyonce: The heart is stronger than you think
It’s like it can go through anything
And even when you think it can’t it finds a way to still push on, though

Carrie: Sometimes you want to run away
Ain’t got the patience for the pain
And if you don’t believe it look into
your heart the beat goes on

Rihanna: I’m tellin’ you
Miley:Things get better
Rihanna: Through
Miley:whatever
Rihanna:If you fall, dust it off, don’t let up

Nicole: Don’t you know you can go be your own miracle

Beyonce: You need to know

(CHORUS)
Sheryl: If the mind keeps thinking you’ve had enough
But the heart keeps telling you don’t give up

EVERYONE: Who are we to be
questioning, wondering what is what
Don’t give up
THROUGH IT ALL, JUST STAND UP!

Fergie: It’s like we all have better days
Problems getting all up in your face

Leona: Just because you go through it

Fergie: Don’t mean it got to take control, no

Leona: You ain’t gotta find no hiding place

Keyshia: Because the heart can beat the hate

Leona: Don’t wanna let your mind keep playin’ you

Keyshia: And sayin’ you can’t go on

Rihanna: I’m tellin’ you that

Rihanna: I’m tellin’ you
Miley:Things get better
Rihanna: Through
Miley: Whatever
Rihanna: If you fall
Miley: Dust if off, don’t let up

Natasha: Don’t you know you
Can go
Be your own



Carrie: You need to know

Ensemble: (CHORUS)
All:If the mind keeps thinking you’ve had enough
Melissa:oh,i've had enough All:But the heart keeps telling you don’t give up
Melissa:no,don't you give up All:Who are we to be
questioning, wondering what is what
Don’t give up
Melissa:Don't give up,just stand up All:Through it all,just stand up Melissa:Just stand up All:THROUGH IT ALL, JUST STAND UP!

Mary: You don’t gotta be a prisoner in your mind

Ciara: If you fall, dust it off

Mary: You can live your life

Rihanna/Carrie: Yeah

Mary: Let your heart be your guide

Rihanna/Carrie: Yeah yeah yeah

Mariah: And you will know that you’re good if you trust in the good

Ashanti: Everything will be alright, yeah
Light up the dark, if you follow your heart

Mary: And it will get better

Mariah: Through whatever

(CHORUS)
If the mind keeps thinking you’ve had enough
But the heart keeps telling you don’t give up
Who are we to be
questioning, wondering what is what
Don’t give up
THROUGH IT ALL, JUST STAND UP!


If the mind keeps thinking you’ve had enough
But the heart keeps telling you don’t give up
Who are we to be
questioning, wondering what is what
Don’t give up
THROUGH IT ALL, JUST STAND UP!

Fergie: You got it in you, find it within
You got in now, find it within now
You got in you, find it within
You got in now, find it within now
You got in you, find it within
Find it within you, find it within
Everyone: THROUGH IT ALL, JUST STAND UP

No matter how difficult life is.. allow me to share how happy I am for some good news...

1. Congrats Ate Tilette for a great start on your pulvuron business!

2. Congrats Jorrel on your engagement!

3. Last but not the least... Congrats Wiw for the new shop.

I am extremely happy for you guys!!!!!

I have this habit of trying to interpret my dreams. By doing so, i have learned to somehow prepare myself for what's about to happen or understand meanings of events in the past.

Last night's dream was one of those weird ones that i cannot seem to understand and it's a very simple one.

The dream goes something like this... I was about to go to a client meeting in Makati ( one of the cities in Metro Manila ) and i took a cab. I was looking out of the window of the cab and saw that we were passing by familiar routes. Then the driver said that we are nearing Quezon City ( it is another city in Metro Manila that is very much far away than Makati ). It was then that i seemed to have woken up from enjoying the view outside and asked the driver why is he taking me to Quezon City when i clearly instructed him to take me to Makati... the weird part is that even though I am familiar with Quezon City, the place seemed different. The driver insisted i told him to go to Quezon City but I am sure that i did not say such a thing. To finish the argument, i just told him to just go back and take me to the correct destination, what he did surprised me, he asked me to go out of his cab and he said he cannot do it. I was left off wondering unfamiliar streets.

That's it.... i just woke up feeling so tired.... it seems like a simple nonsense dream, only it doesn't feel that way... wonder what it meant.....

i've been out for quite sometime, computer shutdown and the holidays.. but I'm back!!!!! and i have lots of stories to tell!

I wanted to post this blog entry of a friend about the song Rainbow connection... To Jen my friend, thanks for this.....

repost from http://blueripples26.blog.friendster.com/2008/08/finding-the-rainbow-connection/

Finding the Rainbow Connection
By jen alcasid


raindrops… misty horizon… chilly breeze… finding the rainbow connection… one perfect moment. if in any case you have sparks of wonder what magically inspires me to write this article, it is the song rainbow connection on a rainy day like this ☺. yeah, remember what kermit the frog sang in the opening of the muppet movie? that song. it was introduced to me and the rest of the class by a fourth grade classmate, though. rapidly, it became everyone’s fave music in those days.

scientifically, a rainbow is defined to be an arch of spectral colors – red, orange, yellow, green, blue, indigo, violet. it appears in the sky with nothing to hide. so is our life. it is a masterpiece we create with the colors and strokes we use. it is a painting that reveals who we truly are. like the rainbow that connects heaven and earth, our life binds us to the mundane and to whatever lies beyond our eyes can see.

ainbows are visions. so are our dreams. these are the mystical experiences we are yet to find on the other side, where sweet voices that once have called young sailors are also calling our names. these are the adventures that we are yet to hurdle in great faith that the universe conspires whenever we really want something to happen. these are the simple yet essential things that we might have ignored many times, the treasures that sit where our hearts belong.


rainbows are but illusions. so are the insatiable desires we are told. these are the material possessions such as money, fame and power that some of us choose to believe bring a perfect life. these are the lies that make us lose our ability to control ourselves. these are the things that we can possibly be but because we are so amazed gazing at the stars, we forget and worse deny to do so.



some of the rainbows i have already discovered, some i have to wait for and see. my journey continues for i will find them someday - the rainbow connection, the lovers, the dreamers, and me

to another member of the Laygo clan... tito turning... this is not goodbye... rest now and be where my biological Papa and our God the Father is.

til we meet again....

Haven't posted anything for a long time... been busy with things and stuff!!!

I'm coming back soon!!!!

Be safe everyone!

I came across this book way back in college... i liked it then...but as time pass by, i have completely forgotten about this. Now i am reading it again. allow me to post the author's opening words and hope you guys would read this too....

To Quote Trina Paulos :

A tale partly about life, partly about revolution and lots about hope for adults and others ( including caterpillars who can read ).

From Trina :

' Many Thanks to everyone all over the world who has helped me believe in the butterfly. this is the tale of a caterpillar who has trouble becoming what he really is. It is like myself...like us. '

Once i finish reading, i would share my insights as well....

Today I am..... HOPEFUL....

Romans 5:5 '...and Hope does not disappoint us because God has poured out HIS love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit'

Today I was able to go to Baclaran church and pray the Novena to Our Mother of Perpetual Help and light candles for my 'hopes'.

I have subscribed to Ms. Susan's daily angel guide and for today she gave me Abraham.... something that i needed the most today. Allow me to share him to you guys....

Abraham will:



Show you the power of faith

Teach you how to trust your process

Remind you of your basic goodness and divine nature



Invocation:



Abraham was a man of prayer. He spent a lot of time talking to God.

Ask Abraham to show you how to have faith, how to let go of your

fearful thinking and feel the love of the universe embracing you.

Walk under the stars and imagine what it must have been like for

Abraham to live in the desert. Then open your heart and expect

miracles to happen.

From Peter Pan : Think of a Happy Thought..so you can fly....



...... now what is my happy thought for today???? I gez the one when My Wiw texted me!!!!!


What is your happy thought today?

The 'crisis' is not a phenonemenon that is only exclusive to USA... here in the Philippines, it is very very much felt especially by average employees like me.

I woke up this morning anxious..worried... of the uncertainty of our tomorrows. But then somehow, below daily verses reading says this to me today :

Psalm 61:2 -- When My heart is overwhelmed; Lead me to the rock that is hgher than I.

The book is asking me to seek calmness in times of crisis.... Iam trying..but God knows I am only human and my fears are very real.... I pray....and ask the Lord for strength and help.

Nahum 1:7 --- The Lord is good, a stronghold in the day of trouble. And HE knows those who take refuge in HIM.

Well... for Filipino Friends muna... coz i am not in the right mood to translate...

6 tips for a happier life:

1) Lahat ng problema may solusyon , kapag walang solusyon , huwag mo ng problemahin.

2) Always remember - kung kaya ng iba, ipagawa mo sa kanila , why tire yourself?

3) Hindi lahat ng gwapo may girlfriend , ang iba sa kanila may boyfriend.

4) Di bale nang tamad di naman pagod.

5) Practice makes perfect , but nobody is perfect so don't practice.

6) Don't face your problem if your problem is your face.


hehehehe... enjoy!

Another crazy post from a crazy friend.... My zodiac sign is Taurus by the way...

Aggressive. Loves being in long relationships. Likes to give a good fight.
Fight for what they want. Can be annoying at times, but for the love of attention. Extremely outgoing. Loves to help people in times of need. Good kisser. Good personality. Stubborn. A caring person. They can be self centered and if they want something they will do anything to get it. They love to sleep and can be lazy. One of a kind. Not one to mess with.

Well.. actually.. she's kinda borrowed... hehehehe... this 2 year old baby is Anne Margret... and i'm not her mom.. just a neighbor and a godmother ( not even a fairy godmother!!!! hehehehe ).. my whole family dotes on her and yeah.. she is our own little bundle of joy even if we only borrow her once in a while.

January 12,2007... my father did not come home... we wondered..we waited...but he just didn't come home........


The Day I Grew Up :

January 13 morning was the day we found him... in a funeral parlor... stripped to nothing... just his body... lifeless..... seeing him made my insides turn.. it seemed so unreal... like i was watching a movie. I never dared to touch him because i wanted my memory of him to be that of a live human being, breathing and warm.

I went out and threw up... i wasn't able to cry.. i just threw up and i was hyper ventillating, i can't breathe and i felt like I'm gonna black out until i felt the hands of my aunt on my back. So many thoughts on my mind... how much money on my wallet to take my father out of that hell hole... how will i tell my family at home waiting for news from me... how will i tell my sister in Taiwan who's the only papa's girl among us.... HOW DO WE ALL GO ON AFTER THIS???? i bowed my head and prayed... i sought for guidance.

I stood up... no tears.. i asked my aunt if her memorial plan was updated.. i started calling people to arrange transportation because i realized we have to take my father's body to the province for the wake and burial... I called the office and notified them that i will not be able to work for a few days... I arranged money.. then i bought his burial clothes..... all the while i can hear people saying... my family was lucky they have me as eldest and that i was in control... but in reality... nobody really knew that i was so much hurting inside.. that i feel like a part of myself was trying to escape that reality but i know i have to face these things because no one else would. then i called my family and confirmed our worst fears.

That was the day I grew up.... i allowed everyone to grieve and i took care of all the things that needed to be done. From that day on until his burial, i was in charge while everyone had the time to cry in their own corner and mourn. From that day on until this very moment i am trying to hide that small child in me looking for his daddy.... that small child crying and trying to grasp and understand what happened ..... that small child hoping and believing that papa will come back and make things right again..... THAT SMALL CHILD has to be kept hidden.....i thought i succeeded.

Now.... going on 2 years since that tragic day... I still feel lost, it is only now that i am starting to feel the pain and the full impact of everything that has happened... I'm simply...LOST....more confused now than before.

I didn't know that growing up can be so painful.

Somebody forwarded me below.... be amused!!!!

CAN YOU CRY UNDER WATER? 

HOW IMPORTANT DOES A PERSON HAVE TO BE BEFORE THEY ARE CONSIDERED ASSASSINATED INSTEAD OF JUST MURDERED?

 
WHY DO YOU HAVE TO "PUT YOUR TWO CENTS IN"... BUT IT'S ONLY A "PENNY FOR YOUR THOUGHTS"? WHERE'S THAT EXTRA PENNY GOING TO? 

ONCE YOU'RE IN HEAVEN, DO YOU GET STUCK WEARING THE CLOTHES YOU WERE BURIED IN FOR ETERNITY?

 
WHY DOES A ROUND PIZZA COME IN A SQUARE BOX? 

WHAT DISEASE DID CURED HAM ACTUALLY HAVE?

 
HOW IS IT THAT WE PUT MAN ON THE MOON BEFORE WE FIGURED OUT IT WOULD BE A GOOD IDEA TO PUT WHEELS ON LUGGAGE? 
  
WHY IS IT THAT PEOPLE SAY THEY "SLEPT LIKE A BABY" WHEN BABIES WAKE UP LIKE EVERY TWO HOURS? 
  
IF A DEAF PERSON HAS TO GO TO COURT, IS IT STILL CALLED A HEARING? 
  
Why are you IN a movie, but you're ON TV? 
  
Why do people pay to go up tall buildings and then put money in binoculars to look at things on the ground? 
  
WHY DO DOCTORS LEAVE THE ROOM WHILE YOU CHANGE? 
THEY'RE GOING TO SEE YOU NAKED ANYWAY. 
  
WHY IS "BRA" SINGULAR AND "PANTIES" PLURAL? 
  
WHY DO TOASTERS ALWAYS HAVE A SETTING THAT BURNS THE TOAST TO A HORRIBLE CRISP, WHICH NO DECENT HUMAN BEING WOULD EAT? 
  
IF JIMMY CRACKS CORN AND NO ONE CARES, WHY IS THERE A STUPID SONG ABOUT HIM? 
  
CAN A HEARSE CARRYING A CORPSE DRIVE IN THE CARPOOL LANE ? 
  
IF THE PROFESSOR ON GILLIGAN'S ISLAND CAN MAKE A RADIO OUT OF A COCONUT, WHY CAN'T HE FIX A HOLE IN A BOAT? 

WHY DOES GOOFY STAND ERECT WHILE PLUTO REMAINS ON ALL FOURS? 
THEY'RE BOTH DOGS? 

IF WILE E. COYOTE HAD ENOUGH MONEY TO BUY ALL THAT ACME CRAP, WHY DIDN'T HE JUST BUY DINNER? 

IF CORN OIL IS MADE FROM CORN, AND VEGETABLE OIL IS MADE FROM VEGETABLES, WHAT IS BABY OIL MADE FROM? 
  
IF ELECTRICITY COMES FROM ELECTRONS, DOES MORALITY COME FROM MORONS? 
  
DO THE ALPHABET SONG AND TWINKLE, TWINKLE LITTLE STAR HAVE THE SAME TUNE? 
  
WHY DID YOU JUST TRY SINGING THE TWO SONGS ABOVE? 

hehehehe.. smile!!!

I came across this today and it reflects how i feel inside these days.....

I know God won't give me something I can't handle. I just wish He didn't trust me so much. --- Mother Teresa

Ipe is a very dear friend of mine... and he's an only son..an only child... one and only baby of his parents.   But this week, he has proven that his kids would never long for a sibling.....  his wife gave birth to TWINS!!!!! Ipe's eldest...TWIN BOYS!!!!!

I'm so happy for this guy and i know he is very happy as well.  Congrats Ipe!!!!!

To Joseph and John..Welcome to the Jungle!!!!!!!! hehehehe...  Love from tita AG in the Philippines to Dubai.

  

Every Rainbow is a Promise of Hope!!!!!

this post is for my Friend Chey who now finds herself 'lost'...

"Somewhere Over the Rainbow"
music by Harold Arlen and lyrics by E.Y. Harburg 

Somewhere over the rainbow
Way up high,
There's a land that I heard of
Once in a lullaby. 

Somewhere over the rainbow
Skies are blue,
And the dreams that you dare to dream
Really do come true.

Someday I'll wish upon a star
And wake up where the clouds are far
Behind me.
Where troubles melt like lemon drops
Away above the chimney tops
That's where you'll find me.

Somewhere over the rainbow
Bluebirds fly.
Birds fly over the rainbow.
Why then, oh why can't I?

If happy little bluebirds fly
Beyond the rainbow
Why, oh why can't I?

Happiness is what i feel hugged tight in your arms!!! tenchu wiw!!!!!

I really have no idea what to post today... until i came across one blog and saw this title.... made me think.... Do i STILL believe in Friends Forever?????

Just recently i posted something here titled 'Pissed Off with Ana'.. that is one example why I'm confused right now if there's truth in this friends forever thing.... however, going back to my post a few days ago titled '2104 gals' makes me think..... even if i was hurt or am still hurting because of a friend... i must never never give up on friendship.... yes.... even if there are times like 'Pissed off with Ana'.... hehehehehe!!!!


How about you???? do you believe in friends forever????

Sometime ago, i posted that I want a new cellphone... i was supposed to add other things that i want or like in that post but that time i can't think much..... here's the the completion.....

10 things i want.....

1. I want a new cellphone... i want that new samsung iphone!!!

2. I want to go to Baguio City... yeah right!!! i am already on my thirties, working so hard but still haven't been to that small heaven in the Philippines... POOR ME!!!!

3. I want a computer of my own at home.. yeah.. i'm still one of those ancient pips who still don't have computer at their house.

4. I want to have my own bed... pink sheets, pink fluffy pillows. I will stack all my piggy stuff there, my rosary collection and prayer books and bible and all current books I am reading. i want a messy bed, with all my stuff on top... ( and picture of wiw under my pillow.. hehehehe )

5. I want a Big Blue Watch!!!

6. I want to rest...I'm tired...

7. I want a life of my own....

8. I want to get married someday to my one and only LOVE, have one cute baby boy and one cute baby girl..... no more, no less.

9. I want to be there always to those who need me.

10. I want to see Papa again soon.


there....... 10 things i want as of the moment. some seems attainable, some seems absurd... some are just wishful thinking but i must admit.... selfish thoughts!!!!!

Father, I do not know what to do. I need you to guide and direct me, please take control of my life, show me the path to take..show me spiritual wisdom and understanding.





today i'm kinda lost.. i don't know what direction to take.......... on bended knees God, I am praying like a child today.

just remembered a song from one of my fave bands... Switchfoot... Learning to Breathe...

Hello good morning how you do... what makes your rising sun so new....
I can use a fresh beginning too.. all of my regrets are nothing new!!!!!

to my wiw... you are my smile in this crazy and tough times... thank you!!!!! hope you remember this place, this church where we shared simple, sincere prayers of our hearts!!!!

Nothin much to say today.... I just feel sleepy i don't feel like working at all!!!!! but of course.. I HAVE TO!!!!!

from left to right in main photo... Ivy, Che, Me, Gret and Donna. Upper right attached pix Ate Yoj, lower right Camille and lower left karen.


Obviously, this is a very old picture.... taken hhhmm.. if i'm not mistaken sometime 1997 or 1998. I just remembered my roommates way back in my good old dormitory days in college.

Ate Yoj was the only one left of the original 2104 but since she was about to graduate already by that year 1994, the 4 of us... Me, Ivy, Gret and Donna became her roommates ( Ivy being the 5th bed that time ).

The next year, when Ate Yoj left, we 4 became the next original ( what a term!!!! ) 2104 gals.... 2104 known as the 'PINK ROOM' in Men's dormitory UPLB ( yep.. Men's.. it was an exclusive dorm for guys in the early days of the University ). We stayed there for 5 1/2 years of our college life and had our own share of adopted babies ( meaning the occassional 5th bed owner while waiting for a space in another room ).....Our adopted babies were Camille who eventually transferred to 2113, Karen to 2103 and Che to 2107.

My fondest memories were in this room and in this dormitory.... I miss all of them but we know in our hearts that we will be Roommates Forever... binded by Love stronger than Blood ever could!!!!

FATSO MEEEE.. AFTER COLLEGE, 9 YEARS AGO... i was like this until early 2004... WWWWWWWHHHOOOAAA!!! I was skinny before that.... hehehehe!


then 2nd and third pix was skinny me from 2005, 2006 to early 2007.......


And... MY LATEST PIX taken just last month... hehehehehe!!!

What is it with women and weight??? Why are we so conscious of gaining weight???

Hehehehehe... nah, this is not another blog post on how to lose weight... I was just amused at how many blogs i have come across with having this subject. In the almost 3 weeks that i have been dropping EC, i make it a point to take a minute and read and i realized that generally, we women are really very conscious of every pound we gain and many bloggers write about it.

Well, it's something i don't understand as well... i am the type of person who gains weight depending on my emotional status... I am yet to figure out what is the ideal weight for me and how i can maintain it. yep, i admit i don't have the time for workout ( I'm just lazy actually!! ) and I'm a couch potato... i know all the stuff that i NEED to do.. i'm just too lazy to practice it.... hehehe.. so for now, allow me to amuse you with my weight changes through the years!!!!

My transit time to and from work everyday is 1 to 1 1/2 hour that is without the traffic. If i am unfortunate enough to be in the midst of some road accident or pouring rain, then it would be 2 hours minimum.

For the past 3 years, i have mastered the art of sleeping on the bus and waking up just in time to get off. I really checked out the best route where i will surely be able to catch the best airconditioned bus so that even if it's a long journey, i can sleep comfortably.

Everything's ok and routine until this morning. As i woke up 2 blocks away from my get off point, i was shocked to realize that the fiftyish man sitting beside me was staring at me. I had goosebumps thinking how long has he been staring at me. I did not act weird, i just played it cool and casually stared out the window. Then he started talking... he asked me questions which i casually but respectfully answered. He told me a lot of things about himself and i pretended to listen, all the while anxious to get off the bus. Then he asked for my phone number... by this time i was really really shocked and i know it showed on my face.... but still, i respectfully said " I'm Sorry but i can't " then even if i'm still a few meters away, i hurriedly got off the bus.

I am not a snob nor am i judgmental.. but i just know when a person has good intentions or not.. I can feel it and this one gives me goosebumps. I don't want to overreact but for my own safety, I am seriously considering finding an alternate route. Freaky!!!!!

i'm sure a lot of bloggers has written something about 9/11.... it was something that shook the whole world.

my take on it????? SIMPLE!!! God has reasons for everything although it is really very difficult to understand much more accept that God allow such things to happen.

i wonder... years after that tragic day...... was there a clear answer already to the many WHYs?????

@#$%^&*()
^%#*(^$#@@


there... that's what i get for being NICE today!!!!!!

OOOOHHHHH... I am ssssoooo pissed off!!!!

{relax...breathe in...breathe out... }


....sometimes i just want to cry it out because i will feel better afterwards..... but i decided to stop crying a long time ago... they would only see my weakness and humiliate me more...... i will just keep quiet..... in silence i will gather my strength... hehehehe.....

' DO NOT DO UNTO OTHERS WHAT YOU DON'T WANT OTHERS TO DO UNTO YOU!' -- the golden rule


I am sssooo pissed off, with some people who thinks they are the only one who have the right to exist in this world... they believe everyone around them is STUPID!!!! .. and i wanted to retaliate and answer back!!!! but i decided to keep my mouth shut.. breathe in and out and say a small prayer to God!!!!!

I do not want to wish it, but i do believe in karma... it's a cycle, it all goes back!!! i will just wait for my time..... and when it happens, i will be grinning from ear to ear..... OOOHHH.. REVENGE..SO SWEET when it's from God!!!!

it's raining cats and dogs outside!!!! I've been goin' home soaking wet for the past 2 days already and now I am already suffering from colds and flu.

On days like this, I miss my Papa... my father.... when I'm not feeling well and it's raining so hard, i used to call him at his office just to tell him i'm not feeling well... then i pretend i'm crying.. and i sniff and sniff and beg him to fetch me so he can take me home ( but of course he will just laugh it off and will tell me to GROW UP!!!! and stop acting like a baby!! ). heheheheh......silly me!

Well... he's gone.... maybe i need to find somebody else to BUG on times like this!!! HEHEHEHEHEH!!!!!!!

I received a miracle.... hhhmm... a gift... last saturday from God.... but i need another one.... TODAY!!!!!

Is it too much if i ask for another one???? Goodness am i desperate????? VERY!!!!!

"Lord God... if you can.. please help me... NOW PLEASE????? "

Friday night i went out to meet 2 friends from college. It was a fun reunion recalling all the silly things we did. We haven't seen each other for about 6 years i think so we really had a great time.

What's funny was when they started asking about my plans for the future. They asked me if i have a bf, i said yes.. they asked when will i get married, i said i don't know... they were shocked!!!! hehehehe... they were more shocked with the direct, non committal way i said...'i don't know'... then they asked my career plans and once again i said i don't know... and they were shocked again.... hehehehe.

I wondered.. what's wrong with my answer??? i really have no plans about my life... was it so bad??? i don't even know what's gonna happen tomorrow.

With everything that i have gone through... i have learned to take it easy and just take each day as it comes. Before, i used to plan everything but God has other plans for me. Now i simply pray.. keep quiet... and wait for God's guidance.

I replied in very few words.....

'Be still and know that I am GOD" -- learning from Isaiah's words.... " IN quietness and confidence shall be your strength " --- from Isaiah 30:15

I know my friends were not satisifed with my answer.. but as long as I am, then all's well.

today is Mama Mary's Birthday... the only reason why I am still a Roman Catholic. I do believe that Jesus is our only way to God the Father and I do believe that the greatest intercessor for Jesus is the Virgin Mother....Mama Mary.

My prayer :

" Mama Mary.... it is your birthday but i was the one who received a gift. Thank you for my weekend miracle... Thank you for watching over me and my family"

Happy Birthday!!!!!!

Seriously.. I'm getting worried now!!!!! My friend just sent me an instant message that someone with same name as mine has been chatting with her. and she's a medical technologist with super same FIRST AND LAST NAME as mine!!!!!!

now i'm havin goosebumps!!!!!!

i always thought my first name is unique.... in my entire life, i have never saw or heard anyone, never met anyone with the same name as mine.... until today!!!! { sighs}

somebody in friendster searched me... and her name is the same as mine. it should be no big deal...but..... oh silly me!!!! it's just a name for crying out loud!!!!!

hhhuuuwwwwaaaaaaaaaaattttttttt??? no new post from me??? too busy or what???

actually yeah..kinda busy with work so that's my thought for the day... WORK!WORK!WORK!!!! gggrrrr.... i'm tired though but the day is about to end.. so looking forward to 6pm and I'm outta here!!!!

If we look deep into everything that's happening to us everyday, you will realize how God works even in small things and details of your life... from simply crossing the street, to the warm sunshine on my face as I look out the window of the bus... God manifests himself.

I am just a sparrow... a small being.... but God watches over this sparrow everyday. How stupid of me to worry as if I have no God. My God is bigger than any situation that i cannot handle.

In this world where some seem to have much and I seem to have little... i have LOVE... and then i know.... I AM BLESSED!!!!

I work 6 days a week and sundays is the only rest day for me. Yesterday, as i was preparing to take a nap, a weird thought suddenly came to mind... my eyes were shut but i was awake... i thought of where would i go when i die... i thought of will i be seeing my family and friends there wherever that is... and i became bothered.

I am honestly not afraid to die... my family has witnessed a number of immediate and distant relatives dying this past year and i became so used to it i have accepted it as part of life itself. However, the uncertainty of it all bothered me yesterday all of a sudden. weird huh?? and just when i was starting to panic ( yes, i was kinda panicky already when i couldn't find an answer to that silly thought ) a thought came to mind... John 14.. funny i remembered that verse all of a sudden. I have posted it here already in a previous blog but funny that i remembered the exact verse number yesterday... let me repost :

John 14 : 2-3

"I am going there to prepare a place for you.. that you also may be where i am..... "

well... i wasn't able to sleep anymore after that... hehehehe......

I know this sounds crazy, but for me September 1 is the official start of Christmas. Instead of making a wish list like i usually do, i opted to start my novena to my 'aunt' saint St. Rita last night. My goal is to finish the novena on December 31 and i have 13 petitions for this novena.

I wish i could share my 13 petitions here, but they're quite personal ( and emotional! hehehehe ), mainly for my family.

I am so looking forward to this coming holiday season. Because no matter what trials i go through for the whole year, i give myself a chance to be childlike every christmas season. But then again, i outgrew Santa Claus!!!! hehehehe.

Merry Christmas Everyone!!!!

is it just me???? am i the only one crazy over this season that i consider September 1 as the official start of Xmas Countdown.


Gee.... I'm so excited!!!!! Merry Christmas Everyone!!!!

have read this question from a book and the author says that when you ask this question to 10 different people... you get 10 different answers as well....

ssssssoooooooooo.. really...... HOW BIG IS GOD???

my answer : all i know is that HE IS SO GREAT... just thinking of an answer constricts my chest..... i literally can't breathe!!!!! aaarrrggghhhhh.....

To say that I'm a virgin blogger is an understatement ( chuckles!!!! hihihi! )... but i really was.... hehehe.. thanks to my 'smile' and now i am in the 'loop'.

I am now celebrating my 1st week of being an official blogger!!!! yey!!! and i am overwhelmed by BIG COMMUNITY of bloggers WORLDWIDE!!!

Just one week on it and it's gettin quite addicting, it's really fun to share thoughts with the community and to know that i am not alone with all my ramblings.

So to everyone who took time to visit and comment... THANK YOU.... Mabuhay ang bloggers!!! ( Long Live Bloggers!! )

" Give thanks to the LORD for HE is good ; HIS LOVE endures forever " -- Psalm 107 : 1-2

In this chaotic, uncertain world.... can we still think of things to thank GOD for???
Let us all take some time to sit down and think.... better make a list of all the things we should be thankful for.....

1st thing that came to mind???? Thank you God for the sun shining on my face this morning!!!!

what about you.. what is the first thing that you thought of????

I just finished an online conversation with my sister, she's in Taiwan and i just realized how i missed her.

We were born exactly one year, one day and one hour apart.. isn't that cool!!!! well, they also say that siblings born a year apart tend to fight a lot and we have our own share of small, harmless kiddy fights and BIG adult fights. I'm not proud of it but just recently we both realized that arguments and disagreements are part of being siblings and it only strengthens our relationship and bond as sisters.

When she first left for Taiwan last 2005, that's when we realized the importance of each other. Just when we were planning for a great sisters day out when she comes back supposedly April 2007, our father died January. She did came back but what should have been a time to make up with each other became a time to mourn and grieve... and of course with that tragedy, flaring up of tempers was unavoidable. Eventually she opted to go back to Taiwan last July 2007.

trials come and go, and we both know we would still keep arguing, but deep in our hearts we only have each other as SISTERS!!!!

do you know that feeling when you know something's wrong inside you but you can't decide whether you go to the doctor or not???

i'm feeling that way at this moment. it seems every part of my body is hurting and i don't even know where to start if ever i decide to go see a doctor. i'm just 31 for goodness sake but am i already showing signs of old age????

hahaha.. senseless ramblings so early in the morning!!!!

Ana is a very close friend of mine... she's in Dubai now. She went to that country leaving behind so many heartaches and hoping that there she will find the peace she can't find here.

She is a very depressed person and i wanted to believe that all this time, I am that 'friend' she can fully trust about everything. We were very close.... or so i thought!!!!!

Last May 2008, she just stopped talking to me.. stopped replying to my text messages, emails or chat offline messages. Tried calling her but still ...NOTHING!!!!

Yesterday i have learned from a common friend that she constantly keeps in touch with him so i texted her once again telling her to ensure she replies coz i know she still exist!! and she did... telling me that she's sorry and that she's just messed up and want to be left alone for now.

i respect that!!!!! i understand that sometimes people need to be alone to sort things out by themselves.... what she failed to understand is that i only need an assurance that she is at least ... ALIVE!!!! i know how she is when sad and depressed and as a TRUE friend... i am concerned!!!! and i WORRY!!!!

maybe.. just maybe.. i was wrong in believing her sincerity.... I AM PISSED OFF!!!!

i'm sure a lot of bloggers has already written about this topic at some point or the other. a lot of self help books has given us tips on how to handle stress and pressure.... let us add another item.. tension.

but these are good in nature. Stress is responsible in holding a bridge that crosses oceans, Tension is responsible for the beautiful music of the violin and Pressure keeps tires inflated. then how come when we hear these words, they are always associated with negative things or events.... a person had a heart attack because of too much pressure.... this person was so stressed out he collapsed... this person had aneurism due to overtension...... and so on and so forth!!!!

but didn't you see where the keypoint was???? TOO MUCH TENSION, TOO MUCH STRESS, TOO MUCH PRESSURE!!!! too much stress will collapse the bridge, too much tension will cut the strings of a violin and too much pressure will burst the tire.

these terms are good in nature, but too much of it is harmful... In our lives, these terms brings out the best in us.... brings out how strong we are in the face of difficulties.... but too much can definitely ruin us.

What we need is balance which can only be achieved in moments of silence and a simple prayer to God. Let us spend some time with God each day.

My stress releiever is my MP4 loaded with some praise songs. in quiet moments inside the shuttle on my way home, i listen to it and close my eyes. I do not have to tell God anything, i simply ask HIM to look into my heart.

to a very special person... Happy Birthday Mama!!! not all moms celebrate their birthdays same day her brother is buried right???? i am so proud of her.... a very strong person!!!!!

she's definitely not the best mom in the world but she's the only mom for us!!!!!

my only wish.... may God heal her... whatever illness she had i surrender to God!!!!

I just remembered somebody from college who secretly gave me a codename.... 'AnGeL'.... i was about to leave the campus when he told me the reason why he gave me that 'alias'....

An --- Allyn
Ge --- Genevieve
L ----- Laygo

cool huh?????? but be warned... I'm very far from bein angelic!!!!

I would like to allocate some space in my blog site for lives of saints that inspire me... allow me to start off with my 'aunt' saint. I call St. Rita my aunt saint because for the longest time, my devotion has always been to Papa Joseph and Mama Mary... then i asked the help of St. Rita for some matters of my heart so i refer to her now as my 'aunt'.

Please take time to read her inspiring story, contents taken from www.saint-rita.org/church/patronSaint/

For centuries St. Rita of Cascia (1381-1457) has been one of the most popular saints in the Catholic Church. She is known as the "Saint of the Impossible" because of the amazing answers to prayer, as well as the remarkable events of her own life.

St. Rita wanted to become a nun, but in obedience to her aged parents, she married. Her husband caused her much suffering, but she repaid his cruelty with prayer and kindness. In time he was converted, becoming considerate and God-fearing. But St. Rita was to undergo another great sorrow when her husband was murdered.

St. Rita then found that her two sons were entertaining thoughts of avenging their father's murder; she feared they would put their desires into effect in accord with the evil custom of the Vendetta. With heroic love for their souls, she begged God to take them from this life rather than allow them to commit this great sin. Not long afterward they both died, after preparing themselves to meet God.

Bereft of spouse and children, St. Rita devoted herself to prayer, penance and works of charity. After a time she applied for admittance to the Augustinian Convent in Cascia. She was refused, but after praying to her three special patron saints-St. John the Baptist, St. Augustine and St. Nicholas of Tolentino-she miraculously entered the convent and was allowed to remain. This took place around the year of 1411.

In the convent, St. Rita's life was marked by great charity and severe penances. Her prayers obtained for others remarkable cures, deliverance from the devil and other special favors from God.

So that she might share in the pain of His Crown of Thorns, Our Lord gave St. Rita a thorn wound in her forehead. It was very painful and gave off a disagreeable odor, yet she considered it a very great grace. She prayed, "O loving Jesus, increase my patience accordingly as my sufferings increase." The wound lasted the rest of her life.

St. Rita died on May 22, 1457 at the age of 76. People flocked to the convent to pay their last respects. Innumerable miracles took place through her intercession, and devotion to her spread far and wide.

St. Rita's body was preserved perfectly incorrupt for several centuries, and at times it gave off a sweet fragrance. At the beatification ceremony, the body of the Saint raised itself up and opened its eyes.

God has heard St. Rita's prayers for others on countless occasions, and certainly she will gladly intercede once again, on behalf of those who pray to her now-thus continuing to prove the truth of her great name: The Saint of the Impossible!

Translate : thank you to Wiw!!!! ( you know who you are! )... i even pasted your picture. heheheheh!!!

Thank you for being my 'SMILE'!!!!

I have learned that LOVE isn't about chocolates and roses, being there for each other all the time and knowing each other's whereabouts every single minute of the day....

I have learned that LOVE cannot be defined because it is UNIQUE for each person.

I have learned that LOVE is something you feel deep within you, something that only you understand when you truly feel it....

I have learned that you will know when LOVE is true by what you feel every time you hear 'I LOVE YOU'.....


LOVE IS UNIQUE!!!! we may see others being blinded by it or being stupid, but that's just how LOVE IS for them... one cannot question how a person loves...... LOVE IS LAWLESS!!!!


I just felt an OVERWHELMING FEELING OF LOVE...part 2!!!! and it's a very peaceful, happy feeling... but don't get me wrong, it is still as uncertain and as imperfect as ever..... but it is very SINCERE.

one of the beautiful surprises i received this week is being invited to be a part of the PSIES batch account in Friendster.... PSIES was my school for a year.... I was Grade 5 and my family moved to San Juan Cavite.... but we stayed there for only a year.

Whether intentionally or unintentionally, a big part of that period of my life i have really forgotten. But thanks to technology.... i think i now have time to catch up....

and do you know what's the most wonderful thing??? despite the fact that most of them doesn't remember me as well, they still welcomed me with open arms as a batchmate and that they are even trying their best to update me with everyone's affairs.....

well.. isn't that what friendster is all about???? to meet old and new friends... and my 'batchmates' just proved it!!!!!


Thanks batchmates.... thank you for the memories!!!!!