REM... Losin My Religion


| Posted on 10/07/2010 09:15:00 AM | Posted in

(VERSE #1)
Oh, life is bigger
It's bigger than you
And you are not me
The lengths that I will go to
The distance in your eyes
Oh no, I've said too much
I've said it all

(VERSE #2)
That's me in the corner
That's me in the spotlight
Losing my religion
Trying to keep up with you
And I don't know if I can do it
Oh no, I've said too much
I haven't said enough

I thought that I heard you laughing
I thought that I heard you sing
I think I thought I saw you try

(VERSE #3)
Every whisper
Of every waking hour
I'm choosing my confessions
Trying to keep an eye on you
Like a hurt, lost and blinded old, fool
Oh no, I've said too much
I've said it all

(VERSE #4)
Consider this
Consider this hint of the century
Consider this slip
That brought me to my knees pale
What if all these fantasies
Come flailing around
And now I've said too much

I thought that I heard you laughing
I thought that I heard you sing
I think I thought I saw you try

That was just a dream
That was just a dream



That was just a dream
Try, cry, why, try
That was just a dream
just a dream, just a dream..

Praying the Rosary


| Posted on 10/05/2010 02:01:00 PM | Posted in

Back in 2006, when i was at the peak of my depression and anxiety attack, i turned to the rosary when i felt i was at my wits end.

For the past month, i am again having trouble sleeping which almost always is a sign of me going into that 'anxiety mode' state again and praying the rosary helps me feel at peace until i actually fall asleep.  It was stupid of me to stop praying it in the first place.

Oh well.. I really am working on improving and strengthening this 'FAITH' thing. 

Silence for now is the BEST


| Posted on 10/04/2010 11:05:00 AM | Posted in

I do not understand why people around me find it difficult to understand me.  Sometimes I think I am speaking a different language.  I guess I really need to admit now that I am having difficulty expressing what I truly feel.

I am an easy person to be with because I do not ask for much and I am easily pleased.. but do not ever promise me anything that I never asked in the first place and then fail…. It pisses me off.  I never ask, I never demand, but do not volunteer something you cannot fulfill.  That disappoints me…. BIG TIME.

I never start an argument but I always end up getting one… worst thing, after everything’s been said and done, bottomline will always be…IT’S MY FAULT.  How unfair is that?  And I always feel guilty.

Just for today I want to cry it all out….. cry out all these pent up frustrations because I am helpless and there’s nothing I can do about it… and then afterwards.. I will practice SILENCE. 


Guardian Angels


| Posted on 10/03/2010 03:00:00 PM | Posted in

I was able to come across a tv channel showing a priest telling people that yesterday Oct 2 was the feast of the Guardian Angels.  I didn’t know that but I joined the priest in prayer anyway.  I have always believed in guardian angels but I admit I took them for granted.  Join me in being reminded of how our angels always watch over us.

Angel of God, my guardian dear, to whom God's love commits me here. Ever this day be at my side, to light and guard, to rule and guide. AMEN.