How deep is My Faith

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| Posted on 7/11/2008 04:54:00 PM | Posted in

" I believe in the sun even when it does not shine, I believe in Love even when it is not shown, I believe in God even when HE does not speak "

.................such simple yet powerful words coming from someone in a torture cell. This was carved in the walls of a Nazi concentration camp in Germany. A ray of hope.......... a faith so deep in the midst of a very gruesome environment. How can those people have that kind of faith???? amazing huh?

Then how can a person like me who prays a lot, reads the bible every now and then, give sound advice to some friends in difficult times and spread the good news by posting inspiring messages to blogs... have so much worries, fears and insecurities that more often than not i myself am a walking contradiction of what i preach? How deep is my faith then???

What Every Woman should Have

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| Posted on 7/10/2008 04:09:00 PM | Posted in

let me share below.... and see my inserts as well... hehehehehe.

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE

one old love
she can imagine
going back to..
and one who reminds
her how far she has come...

OOOHHHH.. I HAVE ONE!!!!

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE


enough money within her
control to move out and
rent a place of her own
even if she never wants
to or needs to...

THIS ONE I DON’T HAVE !!


A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE


something perfect to wear if
the employer or date of her dreams
wants to see her in an hour...


THIS ONE I DON’T HAVE !


A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE


a youth she's content
to leave behind...


MY YOUTH… SO SAD TO LOOK BACK…


A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE


a past juicy enough that
she's looking forward to
retelling it in her old age...

EHEHEHEHE.. I THINK I HAVE THIS!!!

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE


a set of screwdrivers,
cordless drill, and a black
lace bra...

WHAT ABOUT THONGS???


A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE


one friend who always makes
her laugh... and one who lets
her cry...

OH I HAVE LOTS OF THIS!



A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE


a good piece of furniture
not previously owned by anyone
else in her family..

I HAVE MY OWN TV!!!!


A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE


eight matching plates, wine
glasses with stems, and a recipe
for a meal that will make her
guests feel honored..

WORJKING ON THIS!!



A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE


a feeling of control over
her destiny...

OOOHHHHH…

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW.

how to fall in love without
losing herself...

TELL ME HOW!!!

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...


how to quit a job,
break up with a lover,
and confront a friend
without ruining the friendship...
and how to change a tire!!!!!!!


TELL ME HOW!!!


EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...


when to try harder... and
when to walk away...

I ALWAYS SEEM TO TRY HARDER BUT CAN’T WALK AWAY…


EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...


that she can't change the
length of her calves, the width
of her hips, or the nature of her
parents...

OOOHHH I DO KNOW!!!



EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW..


that her childhood may not
have been perfect...but its
over...


I KNOW!!


EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...


what she would and wouldn't
do for love or more...

I DON’T QUITE AGREE!



EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...


how to live alone... even if
she doesn't like it...
CAN’T



EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...


whom she can trust,
whom she can't,
and why she shouldn't
take it personally...

I DPN’T KNOW!!



EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...


where to go...
be it to her best friend's kitchen table..
or a charming inn in the woods...
when her soul needs soothing...


I AM ALWAYS LOST!!!


EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...


what she can and can't
accomplish in a day..
a month...and a year...

WHAT ABOUT YOU????

Oreo Cookies and a Chain Letter

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| Posted on 7/09/2008 05:44:00 PM | Posted in

I am eating oreo cookies now... I had this pack since Monday and suddenly i remembered old friends from the previous company i was affiliated with.. ASPAC INTERNATIONAL.

I used to buy Oreo cookies in packs of two. Way back in ASPAC all my officemates knew that if they're hungry, they can just go to my office and they are welcome to get cookies. That's why since then i made it a point to buy 2 packs, one pack i keep for me and one pack for my officemates. it doesn't take 2 days for me to buy again, it is always gone the moment the pack opens! and now, funny thing, i had one pack for 3 days and i still have more for tomorrow.

To say that i miss them is an understatement. No matter what happened in the past, even if most of those who ate my cookies were the first ones who hurt me... i still miss them. so many good memories that now i realized it surpasses the painful ones. IN the deep valleys of my heart.. they were friends.. they still are!

I wonder... if they still think of me sometimes......

"A good friend will come bail you out of jail....

But a true friend will be sitting next to you saying .

WE screwed up!
"


I've learned...that life is like a roll of toilet paper.

The closer it gets to the end, the faster it goes.


I've learned...that we should be glad God doesn't give us
everything we ask for.
I've learned...that money doesn't buy class.

I've learned...that it's those small daily happenings that make life so spectacular.

I've learned...that under everyone's hard shell is someone who wants to be appreciated and loved.

I've learned...that the Lord didn't do it all in one day.

What makes me think I can?


I've learned...that to ignore the facts does not change the facts.



I've learned.


An ASPAC friend once gave me this message :

a feather fell on my feet, I kept it.
that day I was thinking of my angel
my cute angel, do u know who she is?
look at your wings, maybe it's not complete...

FUNNY THOUGH... i can't feel her now... dunno where she is and she's not even answering my emails.....

On LOVE and Happy Endings

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| Posted on 7/08/2008 03:58:00 PM | Posted in

Sometime in 2005, i made this blog and posted it on my friendster blog account. Although it still generally reflects how i feel about love and happy endings... things changed a lot since then.... let me post it here...

...on love and happy endings...

I never thought LOVE will bring out this sentimental side of me. What’s worst… expressin’ it and postin’ it on Blog is gettin’ quite addictive…He!he! oh well… it’s better to share my tots… might help someone out there… who knows!!!!!

I’m a HOPELESS ROMANTIC… I never thought I was until lately. Maybe I had it in me I just didn’t know it. The problem is, Hopeless Romantics never fail to believe in LOVE AND HAPPY ENDINGS not knowing that it’s just not always possible to have both. That’s why some people decide to be the opposite of it and become so pessimistic on Love…. Like me before… But then again… sometimes things change… Now I believe that it wouldn’t hurt to keep trying… who knows one day I might just find that I have everything I need to make me happy… and stay in Love just the same. Happiness is not having what you want but wanting what you have… I decided to be happily in Love. I decided to think of the happy thoughts instead of the sad, hoping that someday I might get the good things I want.


Loving someone and feeling Loved back is the most special feeling. Love… such a small word to encompass so many emotions. It brings happiness and security which becomes a big motivating factor to a person and yet it also gives a different kind of pain… one that never stops hurting. For me Love has always been a big mystery… it still is and maybe it would always be..


I’ve waited all my life to to find someone I could share my heart and my mind with… I didn’t look… I didn’t ask… I bid my time and just waited… waited for that to happen. And when it did… I can’t believe it happened to me… in the most imperfect situation I have never imagined myself to be.


I’ve read somewhere that “ there will be few times in our lives when all our instincts will tell us to do something that defies logic, upsets our plans and may even seem crazy to others. When that happens we do it… listen to our instincts… follow our heart and ignore everything else, logic, odds, COMPLICATIONS and just go for it!!! I laughed at this… I told myself that this is not going to happen to me because I am the most logical person I know. I don’t usually follow my heart because if I do, I don’t follow logic like I always do. The problem with following my heart is that it takes me to places and situations where I shouldn’t be… and I get hurt… I am so afraid to get hurt… so afraid of rejection… that’s why I built my wall… I raised the window of the car I called ‘MYSELF’ to protect my feelings from hurt… pain…sadness. Because I am most vulnerable…. Most weak when hurt. But then things changed. I broke through my comfort zone and I pushed myself to do things beyond what I am comfortable with… and now I am afraid… it just scared me that I have been so used to being alone for so long and that all this feeling is so new to me . But then…for once I selfishly decided to follow my heart and find my own happiness…. No matter what.


Sometimes I am happy… sometimes I’m not… although I seem happy. The face can mask a thousand emotion but it can easily mask what the heart truly feels… sometimes the happiest face may be masking the most hurting heart… it’s ok… this is my decision and I wanted this… I allowed myself to be tamed. I’ll end this with my most favorite quote from the Little Prince of Antoine Van St. Exupery…. One runs the risk of weeping a little, if one lets himself to be tamed.

Although my intention when i wrote that blog was to share my thoughts on love and happy endings, it seemed to have this melancholy, wishful effect, well... what i was going through that time can be called that... kinda...hhhmm.. sad. But like what i said above, things changed a lot now, almost 3 years after writing that blog. let me share this quote :

1 corinthians 13: 4-8

4Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7It always protects always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

Love is a very special feeling and now i know whatever i have been through in the past in the name of love, i did because i know i have found that one person worthy of sharing myself with. I did not ask for him.. he came to me.. by divine intervention!!!! now isn't that funny??? but true...

There was only me and god who know about that secret that's why when he came along, i knew it was God's work. But who said everything's smooth sailing after that and we lived happily ever after???? oh no.... very very far from it... but then bottom line, after all this time, after all the pain, the conflicts and the difficulties.... hehehehe..... SECRET!!!! details will be in next blog to come!!!! :)

I am happy.. I am happily in love!!!!
LOVE MAY TAKE LONG BUT IT WILL ALWAYS TAKE YOU TO WHERE YOU BELONG. ENJOY THE JOURNEY YOUR HEART WILL KNOW WHEN IT'S FINALLY HOME.

here's a small secret to share... just yesterday... God sent me HIS affirmation that no matter how difficult my journey to this LOVE may be... HE wil always be there for me.... 'WITH A SMILE!'




to a very dear cousin... this is what i want to tell you.....

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| Posted on 7/07/2008 05:13:00 PM | Posted in

To get something you never had, you have to do something you never did. When God takes something from your grasp, He's not punishing you, but merely opening your hands to receive something better. . 'The will of God will never take you where the Grace of God will not protect you.'.

to wenggay.... this is for you....

People are like stained glass windows: they sparkle and shine when the sun is out,
but when the darkness sets in their true beauty is revealed only if there is a light within. --Elizabeth Kubler-Ross