Give Us This Day Prayer will bring my Will into Harmony with GOD!

'kung ang ulan ay puro chokolate o ang sarap ng ulan!!! ako'y lalabas at ako'y nganganga... hahahahaha!' ... and so goes the song......


it has been raining the past few days already... the other night we were even stranded for hours in traffic due to floods in main road.

if every drop of rain brings blessings..... OH KAY SARAP NG ULAN!!!!!!

i always try my best to keep my mouth shut!!!! my opinions almost always convey the wickedest truths that can either amuse or hurt!!!!!... most of the time hurt.....

from now on.. i will try my best..... to keep my opinions to myself if i know no good will come out of it.

if you have nothin good to say... don't speak!!!!! in plain simple words... SHUT UP!!!!!!!

there are days like this that makes me realize how tired i was... how tired i am..... sometimes i think i have reached my limit and i want to just...hhhmmm... fade away.... find that rest.

i am tired.... i really am....

this picture is very special to me.....some of my friends who saw this think that the girl look a lot like me. hehehehe.

the first time i saw this picture was in a retreat way back in college. We were given a task to go to our rooms ( we were given separate rooms each ) and stay there for one hour. No going out, just stay inside, sleep if you want, sing or dance... just stay inside.

i opted to sit on my bed and pretend that Jesus is there in the room with me... i talked to him like he was just sitting across me on the bed. I told him everything that's in my heart at that moment.... not mushy things... just simple everyday things.... like i'm talking to my roommate. I was even visualizing HIS reactions and imagining what he would say if i can hear his replies. before the 1 hour was up, i felt that HE asked me to sleep, so i did. when i woke up, the end page of the pamphlet given to us was open and i saw this picture... down below were the words... TOMORROW I WILL HAVE A SURPRISE READY FOR YOU.... i encircled those words and for the first time in years believed wholeheartedly that i will have a surprise from Jesus the next day.... i closed my eyes and took the pillow... i imagined i hugged Jesus.

the next day, with the exams and everything else... i totally forgot about this.... until i saw my roommate in my laboratory room, she said i need to go to the Admin building immediately to claim my one year's worth of scholarship allowance. The previous year, the president granted all scholars an increase in monthly allowance but with Philippine budget so tight, older batch of students will receive it on lump sum the next year. since the start of the sem we have been checking and waiting for it but we didn't realize that it will be on a separate payroll. UP was late but it came at the right time... because of that money i was able to start on my thesis. then i remembered the picture... it was the first of the many direct miracles i received but this one sticks out the most!!!!

last night i got into thinking how it feels to have your own space.... my own apartment perhaps... and i visualized what i wanted....

1. i want it to be on the rooftop of a building overlooking the sea.... or if there's no body of water, basta i want my apartment to be on top of something na ang balcony ko would be overlooking the busy city below.

2. i want my apartment to have a sort of fireplace... in Philippine weather that seemed unlikely but i would do with a fake one... basta i want a fireplace where i can place my lazy chair and read books there.

3. I want my main door to be facing the east side of the building... tapos the wall on that side will be glass... so that i can have firsthand access sa elemnts of nature... sunlight and rain and wind.

4. the interior would be spacious, sort of japanese zen type..no dining table, sit lang sa floor.

5. my bedroom will be littered with all my paper boxes containing all of my memorabilia and stuff.

6. lastly...wala elevator... i go up and down using stairs.... hahahahahah....


ala lang.... just thinking.......