Showing posts with label Mumblings. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Mumblings. Show all posts
| Posted on 10/05/2010 02:01:00 PM | Posted in Mumblings
Back in 2006, when i was at the peak of my depression and anxiety attack, i turned to the rosary when i felt i was at my wits end.
For the past month, i am again having trouble sleeping which almost always is a sign of me going into that 'anxiety mode' state again and praying the rosary helps me feel at peace until i actually fall asleep. It was stupid of me to stop praying it in the first place.
| Posted on 10/04/2010 11:05:00 AM | Posted in Mumblings
I do not understand why people around me find it difficult to understand me. Sometimes I think I am speaking a different language. I guess I really need to admit now that I am having difficulty expressing what I truly feel.
I am an easy person to be with because I do not ask for much and I am easily pleased.. but do not ever promise me anything that I never asked in the first place and then fail…. It pisses me off. I never ask, I never demand, but do not volunteer something you cannot fulfill. That disappoints me…. BIG TIME.
I never start an argument but I always end up getting one… worst thing, after everything’s been said and done, bottomline will always be…IT’S MY FAULT. How unfair is that? And I always feel guilty.
Just for today I want to cry it all out….. cry out all these pent up frustrations because I am helpless and there’s nothing I can do about it… and then afterwards.. I will practice SILENCE.
NOTE : PICTURE FROM www.JourneyAnswers.com
| Posted on 10/03/2010 03:00:00 PM | Posted in Mumblings
I was able to come across a tv channel showing a priest telling people that yesterday Oct 2 was the feast of the Guardian Angels. I didn’t know that but I joined the priest in prayer anyway. I have always believed in guardian angels but I admit I took them for granted. Join me in being reminded of how our angels always watch over us.
Angel of God, my guardian dear, to whom God's love commits me here. Ever this day be at my side, to light and guard, to rule and guide. AMEN.
| Posted on 10/01/2010 10:19:00 AM | Posted in Mumblings
A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE
one old love
she can imagine
going back to..
and one who reminds
her how far she has come...
one old love
she can imagine
going back to..
and one who reminds
her how far she has come...
OOOHHHH.. I HAVE ONE… I THINK!!!! J
A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE
enough money within her
control to move out and
rent a place of her own
even if she never wants
to or needs to...
THIS ONE I DON’T HAVE L
A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE
enough money within her
control to move out and
rent a place of her own
even if she never wants
to or needs to...
THIS ONE I DON’T HAVE L
A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE
something perfect to wear if
the employer or date of her dreams
wants to see her in an hour...
THIS ONE I DON’T HAVE L
A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE
a youth she's content
to leave behind...
MY YOUTH… SO SAD TO LOOK BACK…
A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE
a past juicy enough that
she's looking forward to
retelling it in her old age...
EHEHEHEHE.. I THINK I HAVE THIS!!!
A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE
a set of screwdrivers,
cordless drill, and a black
lace bra...
WHAT ABOUT THONGS???
A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE
one friend who always makes
her laugh... and one who lets
her cry...
OH I HAVE LOTS OF THIS!
A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE
a good piece of furniture
not previously owned by anyone
else in her family..
I HAVE MY OWN TV!!!!
A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE
eight matching plates, wine
glasses with stems, and a recipe
for a meal that will make her
guests feel honored..
WORJKING ON THIS!!
A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE
a feeling of control over
her destiny...
OOOHHHHH…
EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW.
how to fall in love without
losing herself...
EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW.
how to fall in love without
losing herself...
TELL ME HOW!!!
EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
how to quit a job,
break up with a lover,
and confront a friend
without ruining the friendship...
and how to change a tire!!!!!!!
EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
how to quit a job,
break up with a lover,
and confront a friend
without ruining the friendship...
and how to change a tire!!!!!!!
TELL ME HOW!!!
EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
when to try harder... and
when to walk away...
I ALWAYS SEEM TO TRY HARDER BUT CAN’T WALK AWAY…
EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
that she can't change the
length of her calves, the width
of her hips, or the nature of her
parents...
OOOHHH I DO KNOW!!!
EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW..
that her childhood may not
have been perfect...but its
over...
I KNOW!!
EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
what she would and wouldn't
do for love or more...
I DON’T QUITE AGREE!
EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
how to live alone... even if
she doesn't like it...
CAN’T
EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
whom she can trust,
whom she can't,
and why she shouldn't
take it personally...
I DON’T KNOW!!
EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
where to go...
be it to her best friend's kitchen table..
or a charming inn in the woods...
when her soul needs soothing...
I AM ALWAYS LOST!!!
EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
what she can and can't
accomplish in a day..
a month...and a year...
WHAT ABOUT YOU????
| Posted on 9/15/2010 11:55:00 AM | Posted in Mumblings
"Maybe our mistakes are what make our fate. Without them, what would shape our lives? Perhaps if we never veered off course, we wouldn't fall in love, or have babies, or be who we are. After all, seasons change. So do cities. People come into your life and people go. But it's comforting to know the ones you love are always in your heart. And if you're very lucky, a plane ride away"
Carrie Bradshaw - Sex & The City
| Posted on 6/11/2010 03:47:00 PM | Posted in Mumblings
I haven't really prayed lately.. not because i lost faith but simply because I'm having difficulty expressing what i truly feel. There's just so much inside my heart... fear...anxiety..confusion...
Last night, i cried.. i didn't say anything, i didn't talk, i just allowed my tears to say it all.... i hope HE heard.. i hope HE understood.
| Posted on 6/10/2010 02:51:00 PM | Posted in Mumblings
Inner Turmoil
You may feel crazy on the inside, but to the outside world you are the picture of absolute normality. Keeping things inside may be driving you slowly insane, but the outside world will never know. Of course, it's not always good to keep things bottled up. It could lead to ulcers and hyper tension. So release that pent up insanity once in a while, we promise the world will not judge you and you might even have some fun exorcising your madness.
A Prayer of Humble Trust ... Psalm 131.... Lord I have given up my pride and turned away from my arrogance. I am not concerned with great matters or with subjects too difficult for me. Instead I am content and at peace as a child lies quietly in it's mother's arms so my heart is quiet within me. israel , trust in the Lord now and forever.....
| Posted on 4/28/2010 08:56:00 PM | Posted in Mumblings
...how come my mind seems so blank... i know i have a lot of thoughts that i wanted to share but i just can't express it..... writer's block!
and i can't even paste a picture!!!!! coz i don't know how! ggggggggrrrrrrrrrr!
and i can't even paste a picture!!!!! coz i don't know how! ggggggggrrrrrrrrrr!
| Posted on 7/09/2009 02:47:00 PM | Posted in Mumblings

I am at this point in my life that i wanted to go back a few years and check when and where did i made that wrong decision... that WRONG TURN.... it seems everything that's happening now is very much out of my control... i can't seem to understand and i feel like i have been trying so hard to catch up for God knows what...
I am so confused already... the signs are confusing, everyone around me confuses me... i even confuse myself!!!!

Signs serve basically as 'direction guides'... need i explain more? ....
In my whole life, i have never trusted myself in making my own decisions. I always try to get the opinion of other people so that i will have someone to blame if anything goes wrong... sssoooo.. what happened the past 4 years or so? if my life had been a mess.. when and where did the wrong decision was made?
then i started asking God for HIS signs.. to guide my life... but then again.. i thought i was understanding and interpreting it correctly until the small confusion became a very big conflict in my life.
2 days ago i made a decision.. and just when i thought God would be quiet ( which HE always does when i pester him for a sign )... i received it... THE SIGN i always ask of HIM.
So God.. no matter what it is... i will not allow anyone to contradict MY SIGN.. it was from YOU and i know in my heart you approve of THE DECISION!!!
I Love you LORD... and I lift my voice.. to worship you.. OH my soul...rejoice!!!
| Posted on 5/14/2009 04:20:00 PM | Posted in Mumblings

So it's my birthday.. and I'm 32... well... why is it so sad???? Lemme just sing for myself!!! PATHETIC!
Haberdei tu mi! Haberdei tu mi ! Haberdei... Haberdei...... ( Pause...Deep breath )....HABERDEI..TUU.. MIIIIIIIIIIII!!!!!
| Posted on 1/28/2009 09:33:00 AM | Posted in Mumblings

As my daily reading said last night.. 'Make a knot on the rope of faith and hold on tight... God will come at exacly the right time'....
Given everything i have been through..I was once again thrown into the pit of misery... i thought i am already immune with trials.. that i will not be affected anymore... but then November 30 happened and everything in me was once again shattered.. I was again 'BACK TO SQUARE ONE'...what happened to my faith?? What happened to my hope??? i was already UP THERE but then i allowed myself again to slide down to step one.
I ran to Mama Mary.. I turned and looked back at what happened.. it was like waking up once again from a deep slumber... i once again opened my eyes and my heart to re examine my faith... 9 weeks after, i have succeeded in my walk of faith... Now i am trying my best to face what lies beyond with courage and renewed hope..... HOLDING ON TIGHT TO THE ROPE OF MY FAITH... WAITING FOR GOD TO COME PICK ME UP.
I hope i can say that after this everything will be better and life will be rosier... but I know God is not like that... I know that i will be facing more trials in the next days to come.. God would check if indeed i have learned to trust HIM and believe in HIM fully with all of my heart's wishes.. my dreams and ambitions. that's why i will continue asking for the help of Mama Mary.. to give me the strength and guide me in facing my emotions as I am very very much human. I may have accepted that everything that's happening to my life right now is part of God's BIG PLAN for me... but it is still very very much difficult to understand sometimes and me being human, i experience and feel all the emotions.. the hurt and pain... the sadness and frustration.
I did it!!! 9 weeks... 9 mornings! and i will continue...........
| Posted on 1/23/2009 03:10:00 PM | Posted in Mumblings

I refuse to be affected with the recent events that wanted to dampen the joyous mood of the morning….. It happens…. SHIT REALLY HAPPENS!!!! this is really a test… I can only pray that just like how we laughed at our silliness in the morning…. This day shall too come to pass and everything will soon fall into place.
Come to think of it, I even went to church before going to the office to say a small ‘Thank You’ for time spent with him……….. but really we are being tested.. I am ok.. I just hope this day will pass as OK with him as well.
| Posted on 1/22/2009 06:10:00 PM | Posted in Mumblings

With everything going on in my life right now... I only pray that God will give me courage to simply accept things that i don't understand...actually.. i have learned to accept, the problem is, i am much too human to feel the emotions and most of the time, these emotions drain me.
I pray for strength and wisdom....
| Posted on 1/20/2009 09:22:00 AM | Posted in Mumblings
HANDBOOK 2009
Health:
1. Drink plenty of water.
2. Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a beggar.
3. Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants and eat less food that is manufactured in plants.
4. Live with the 3 E's -- Energy, Enthusiasm, and Empathy.
5. Make time to practice meditation, yoga, and prayer.
6. Play more games.
7. Read more books than you did in 2008.
8. Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day.
9. Sleep for 7 hours.
10. Take a 10-30 minutes walk every day. And while you walk, smile.
Personality:
11. Don't compare your life to others'.
You have no idea what their journey is all about.
12. Don't have negative thoughts or things you cannot control.
Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment.
13. Don't over do. Keep your limits.
14. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
15. Don't waste your precious energy on gossip.
16. Dream more while you are awake.
17. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
18. Forget issues of the past.
Don't remind your partner with his/her mistakes of the past.
That will ruin your present happiness.
19. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Don't hate others.
20. Make peace with your past so it won't spoil the present.
21. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.
22. Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn.
Problems are simply part of the curriculum that appear and
fade away like algebra class but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime.
23. Smile and laugh more.
24. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
Society:
25. Call your family often.
26. Each day give something good to others.
27. Forgive everyone for everything.
28. Spend time with people over the age of 70 & under the age of 6.
29. Try to make at least three people smile each day.
30. What other people think of you is none of your business.
31. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick.
Your friends will. Stay in touch.
Life:
32. Do the right thing!
33. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
34. GOD heals everything.
35. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
36. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
37. The best is yet to come.
38. When you awake alive in the morning, thank GOD for it.
39. Your Inner most is always happy. So, be happy.
Last but not the least:
40. Please Forward this to everyone you care about
Health:
1. Drink plenty of water.
2. Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a beggar.
3. Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants and eat less food that is manufactured in plants.
4. Live with the 3 E's -- Energy, Enthusiasm, and Empathy.
5. Make time to practice meditation, yoga, and prayer.
6. Play more games.
7. Read more books than you did in 2008.
8. Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day.
9. Sleep for 7 hours.
10. Take a 10-30 minutes walk every day. And while you walk, smile.
Personality:
11. Don't compare your life to others'.
You have no idea what their journey is all about.
12. Don't have negative thoughts or things you cannot control.
Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment.
13. Don't over do. Keep your limits.
14. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
15. Don't waste your precious energy on gossip.
16. Dream more while you are awake.
17. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
18. Forget issues of the past.
Don't remind your partner with his/her mistakes of the past.
That will ruin your present happiness.
19. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Don't hate others.
20. Make peace with your past so it won't spoil the present.
21. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.
22. Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn.
Problems are simply part of the curriculum that appear and
fade away like algebra class but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime.
23. Smile and laugh more.
24. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
Society:
25. Call your family often.
26. Each day give something good to others.
27. Forgive everyone for everything.
28. Spend time with people over the age of 70 & under the age of 6.
29. Try to make at least three people smile each day.
30. What other people think of you is none of your business.
31. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick.
Your friends will. Stay in touch.
Life:
32. Do the right thing!
33. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
34. GOD heals everything.
35. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
36. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
37. The best is yet to come.
38. When you awake alive in the morning, thank GOD for it.
39. Your Inner most is always happy. So, be happy.
Last but not the least:
40. Please Forward this to everyone you care about
| Posted on 12/22/2008 05:36:00 PM | Posted in Mumblings

Sending my simple greeting to my new friends in the Blog community... you were all with me in those happy times and sad times.... thank you and Merry Christmas to all!!!
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