Give Us This Day Prayer will bring my Will into Harmony with GOD!

I am at this point in my life that i wanted to go back a few years and check when and where did i made that wrong decision... that WRONG TURN.... it seems everything that's happening now is very much out of my control... i can't seem to understand and i feel like i have been trying so hard to catch up for God knows what...


I am so confused already... the signs are confusing, everyone around me confuses me... i even confuse myself!!!!

Signs serve basically as 'direction guides'... need i explain more? ....

In my whole life, i have never trusted myself in making my own decisions. I always try to get the opinion of other people so that i will have someone to blame if anything goes wrong... sssoooo.. what happened the past 4 years or so? if my life had been a mess.. when and where did the wrong decision was made?

then i started asking God for HIS signs.. to guide my life... but then again.. i thought i was understanding and interpreting it correctly until the small confusion became a very big conflict in my life.

2 days ago i made a decision.. and just when i thought God would be quiet ( which HE always does when i pester him for a sign )... i received it... THE SIGN i always ask of HIM.

So God.. no matter what it is... i will not allow anyone to contradict MY SIGN.. it was from YOU and i know in my heart you approve of THE DECISION!!!


I Love you LORD... and I lift my voice.. to worship you.. OH my soul...rejoice!!!

Til My Heartache End..
Ella Mae Saison

i recall when you said that you would never leave me
you told me more so much more like when the time you whispered
in my ear there was heaven in my heart
i remember when you said that youd be here forever
then you left without even saying that youre leaving
i was hurt and it really wont be easy to forget
yesterday and i pray that you would stay
but then youre gone and oh so far away

i was afraid this time would come
i wasnt prepared to face this kind of hurtin from within
i have learned to live my life beside you
maybe ill just dream of you tonight
and if into my dream you come and touch me once again
ill just keep on dreaming
till my heartaches end

and then you left without even saying that youre leaving
i was hurt and it really wont be easy to forget
yesterday and i pray that you would stay
but then youre gone and oh so far away

i was afraid this time would come
i wasnt prepared to face this kind of hurtin from within
i have learned to live my life beside you
maybe ill just dream of you tonight
and if into my dream you come and touch me once again
ill just keep on dreaming
till my heartaches end

i was afraid this time would come
i wasnt prepared to face this kind of hurtin from within
i have learned to live my life beside you
maybe ill just dream of you tonight
and if into my dream you come and touch me once again
ill just keep on dreaming
till my heartaches end

keep on dreaming
till my heartaches end

Take My Heart Back
By Jennifer Love Hewitt

It'll be alright
You said
Tommorrow
Don't you cry
Don't you shed a tear
When you wake up
I will still be here
When you wake up
We'll battle all your fears
And now I'll...

Take my heart back
Leave your pictures on the floor
Steal back my memories
I can't take it anymore
I've cried my eyes out
Oh,and now I face the years
The way you loved me
Vanished all the tears

Just a little more time was all we needed
Just a little time for me to see
Oh,the light that life can give you
Oh,how we get such a free
So now I'll...

Take my heart back
Leave your pictures on the floor
Steal back my memories
I can't take it anymore
I've cried my eyes out
Oh,and now I face the years
The way you loved me
Vanished all the tear

So it's my birthday.. and I'm 32... well... why is it so sad???? Lemme just sing for myself!!! PATHETIC!



Haberdei tu mi! Haberdei tu mi ! Haberdei... Haberdei...... ( Pause...Deep breath )....HABERDEI..TUU.. MIIIIIIIIIIII!!!!!

From Air Supply.... THE ONE THAT YOU LOVE....


Now the night has gone
Now the night has gone away...
Doesnt seem that long
We hardly had two words to say...
Hold me in your arms
For just another day
I promise this one will go slow
Oh...
We have the right to know
We have the right to know


Dont say the mornings come
Dont say the mornings come so soon...
Must we end this way
When so much here is hard to lose...
Love is everywhere
I know it is
Such moments as this
Are too few
Oh...
Its all up to you
Its all up to you...


Here I am
The one that you love
Askin for another day
Understand the one that you love
Loves you in so many ways


Ah...
Tell me we can stay
Tell me we can stay oh please...
They are the words to say
The only words I can believe...
Hold me in your arms
For just another day
I promise this one will go slow
Oh...
We have the right you know
We have the right you know



Here I am
The one that you love
Askin for another day
Understand the one that you love
Loves you in so many ways
Here I am
The one that you love
Askin for another day
Understand the one that you love
Loves you in so many ways
The night has gone
A part of yesterday



I dont know what to say...
I dont know what to say...


Here I am
The one that you love
Askin for another day
Understand
The one that you love
Loves you in so many ways...
Here I am
The one that you love
Askin for another day
Understand the one that you love
Loves you in so many ways
Here I am
The one that you love
Askin for another day
Understand the one that you love
Loves you in so many ways..

and so i'm back.. with lots of story to tell...

As my daily reading said last night.. 'Make a knot on the rope of faith and hold on tight... God will come at exacly the right time'....

Given everything i have been through..I was once again thrown into the pit of misery... i thought i am already immune with trials.. that i will not be affected anymore... but then November 30 happened and everything in me was once again shattered.. I was again 'BACK TO SQUARE ONE'...what happened to my faith?? What happened to my hope??? i was already UP THERE but then i allowed myself again to slide down to step one.

I ran to Mama Mary.. I turned and looked back at what happened.. it was like waking up once again from a deep slumber... i once again opened my eyes and my heart to re examine my faith... 9 weeks after, i have succeeded in my walk of faith... Now i am trying my best to face what lies beyond with courage and renewed hope..... HOLDING ON TIGHT TO THE ROPE OF MY FAITH... WAITING FOR GOD TO COME PICK ME UP.

I hope i can say that after this everything will be better and life will be rosier... but I know God is not like that... I know that i will be facing more trials in the next days to come.. God would check if indeed i have learned to trust HIM and believe in HIM fully with all of my heart's wishes.. my dreams and ambitions. that's why i will continue asking for the help of Mama Mary.. to give me the strength and guide me in facing my emotions as I am very very much human. I may have accepted that everything that's happening to my life right now is part of God's BIG PLAN for me... but it is still very very much difficult to understand sometimes and me being human, i experience and feel all the emotions.. the hurt and pain... the sadness and frustration.

I did it!!! 9 weeks... 9 mornings! and i will continue...........

I refuse to be affected with the recent events that wanted to dampen the joyous mood of the morning….. It happens…. SHIT REALLY HAPPENS!!!! this is really a test… I can only pray that just like how we laughed at our silliness in the morning…. This day shall too come to pass and everything will soon fall into place.

Come to think of it, I even went to church before going to the office to say a small ‘Thank You’ for time spent with him……….. but really we are being tested.. I am ok.. I just hope this day will pass as OK with him as well.

With everything going on in my life right now... I only pray that God will give me courage to simply accept things that i don't understand...actually.. i have learned to accept, the problem is, i am much too human to feel the emotions and most of the time, these emotions drain me.

I pray for strength and wisdom....

HANDBOOK 2009







Health:



1. Drink plenty of water.


2. Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a beggar.


3. Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants and eat less food that is manufactured in plants.


4. Live with the 3 E's -- Energy, Enthusiasm, and Empathy.


5. Make time to practice meditation, yoga, and prayer.


6. Play more games.


7. Read more books than you did in 2008.


8. Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day.


9. Sleep for 7 hours.


10. Take a 10-30 minutes walk every day. And while you walk, smile.







Personality:





11. Don't compare your life to others'.

You have no idea what their journey is all about.


12. Don't have negative thoughts or things you cannot control.

Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment.


13. Don't over do. Keep your limits.


14. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.


15. Don't waste your precious energy on gossip.


16. Dream more while you are awake.


17. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.


18. Forget issues of the past.

Don't remind your partner with his/her mistakes of the past.

That will ruin your present happiness.


19. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Don't hate others.


20. Make peace with your past so it won't spoil the present.


21. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.


22. Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn.

Problems are simply part of the curriculum that appear and

fade away like algebra class but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime.


23. Smile and laugh more.


24. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.







Society:





25. Call your family often.


26. Each day give something good to others.


27. Forgive everyone for everything.


28. Spend time with people over the age of 70 & under the age of 6.


29. Try to make at least three people smile each day.


30. What other people think of you is none of your business.


31. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick.

Your friends will. Stay in touch.







Life:





32. Do the right thing!


33. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.


34. GOD heals everything.


35. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.


36. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.


37. The best is yet to come.


38. When you awake alive in the morning, thank GOD for it.


39. Your Inner most is always happy. So, be happy.







Last but not the least:





40. Please Forward this to everyone you care about

Here I am Lord
Words and Music by Daniel L Schutte

Genesis 46:2
"And God spake unto Israel in the visions of the night,
and said, Jacob, Jacob. And he said, Here am I."



I, the Lord of sea and sky,
I have heard my people cry.
All who dwell in dark and sin,
My hand will save.

Chorus
Here I am, Lord. Is it I, Lord?
I have heard you calling in the night.
I will go, Lord, if you lead me.
I will hold your people in my heart.

I, who made the stars of night,
I will make their darkness bright.
Who will bear my light to them?
Whom shall I send?

Chorus
Here I am, Lord. Is it I, Lord?
I have heard you calling in the night.
I will go, Lord, if you lead me.
I will hold your people in my heart.

I, the Lord of snow and rain,
I have borne my people’s pain.
I have wept for love of them.
They turn away.

Chorus
Here I am, Lord. Is it I, Lord?
I have heard you calling in the night.
I will go, Lord, if you lead me.
I will hold your people in my heart.

I will break their hearts of stone,
Give them hearts for love alone.
I will speak my words to them.
Whom shall I send?

Chorus
Here I am, Lord. Is it I, Lord?
I have heard you calling in the night.
I will go, Lord, if you lead me.
I will hold your people in my heart.

I, the Lord of wind and flame,
I will send the poor and lame.
I will set a feast for them.
My hand will save.

Chorus
Here I am, Lord. Is it I, Lord?
I have heard you calling in the night.
I will go, Lord, if you lead me.
I will hold your people in my heart.

Finest bread I will provide,
'Til their hearts be satisfied.
I will give my life to them.
Whom shall I send?

Chorus
Here I am, Lord. Is it I, Lord?
I have heard you calling in the night.
I will go, Lord, if you lead me.
I will hold your people in my heart.